Augustine of Hippo
He is abundant in goodness, self-sufficient, lacking nothing. This is my source of illumination; from it I gain understanding, for I exclaim: “Thou lightest my candle, O Lord.” What then troubles me? I am destitute and in want. I feel like an orphan, my spirit is akin to a lonely widow; in my frailty, I continually seek assistance. Though my sins are forgiven and I strive to live according to God’s commandments, I still find myself in want. Why do I remain in such need? It is because I observe another law at work within me, waging war against my mind's intentions (Rom. 7:23). Why do I contend with want? Because “blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness” (Matt. 5:6). Still, I find myself longing and yearning; my fullness is yet to come, but it has not been taken from me.
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O God, provide me aid. It is apt to consider Lazarus as a recipient of help: this needy and lacking man who was carried to Abraham’s bosom (Luke 16:23), serving as a model for the Church, which must constantly acknowledge its need for assistance. This is a truth rooted in piety. I proclaimed to the Lord, “Thou art my God.” Why is this so? Because You do not require my possessions. It is not us who are necessary for Him; rather, it is we who depend on Him, and thus He is indeed our Lord. For you are not the true Lord of your servant; both are mere mortals who rely upon God. If you believe your servant is in need of you for sustenance, remember that you also depend on your servant’s work. Each one has needs from the other, revealing that neither is a true master, nor is either a true servant. Listen to the genuine Lord, to whom you serve faithfully: I have declared to the Lord, “Thou art my God.” Why You, Lord? Because You do not seek my possessions, but what of You? Yet here I am, needy and impoverished. Behold the poor and destitute: may God provide nourishment, may God offer relief, may God assist: “God, saith the Lord, help me.” My helper and redeemer is You; O Lord, do not delay. You are my support and rescuer: I require assistance, You aid me; I am perplexed, You deliver me. No one removes the snares but You. We are surrounded by the burdens of various concerns; on every side, we feel as if we are entangled by thorns, walking a narrow path that may ensnare us. Let us proclaim to God, “Thou art my deliverer.” He who has shown us the cramped road (Matt. 7:14), instructs us on how to walk it... what does this plea for no delay signify? Many claim, “It is taking too long for Christ to return.” But what does it mean for us to say, “do not delay,” will He arise before His designated time? What does our prayer indicate? We seek that Your arrival does not appear tardy. For what seems prolonged to us is brief to God, to whom a thousand years are but a single day or a fleeting moment. And if you lack patience, it will become too late for you; in that lateness, you may turn away from Him, like those who grew weary in the wilderness and hastened to request from God the pleasant gifts He had in store for them; when those desirable gifts did not manifest in a corruptible manner, they grumbled against God and yearned for Egypt in their hearts.... Therefore, refrain from such actions: heed the word of the Lord, saying, “Remember Lot's wife” (Luke 17:32). She was on the road, having been rescued from Sodom, yet she looked back; in her looking back, she became a pillar of salt, serving as a testament to you. She stands as an example, that you may remain determined and not be distracted on your journey. Notice how she hesitates and then proceeds; observe her gaze backward, and you aspire toward what lies ahead, as Paul exemplified (Phil. 3:13). What it means to forget what is behind. So you persist, called toward a heavenly reward, which you will celebrate in the days to come. The same Apostle affirms, “There remains for me a crown of righteousness, which in that day the Lord, the righteous Judge, shall reward me” (2 Tim. 4:8).