How did some act according to the truth so as to come to the light, that is, to Christ? And how did some love darkness? He finds all men sinners and heals all from sin. The serpent, in which the Lord's death was prefigured, heals those who had been bitten. Because of the serpent's bite, the serpent was lifted up, that is, the Lord's death for mortal men whom He found unrighteous.
How, then, should this be understood: "And this is the judgment, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil" (Jn 3:19)?
What does this mean? Whose deeds were good? Did You not come to justify the ungodly? But He says, "They loved darkness rather than light." Here is what He emphasized. Many loved their sins, but many acknowledged their sins. Whoever acknowledges his sins and reproves his sins is already acting together with God. God reproves your sins. If you also reprove them, you are joined to God.
There are, as it were, two things: the man and the sinner. What you call man, God created. What you call sinner, man himself made. Destroy what you made, so that God may heal what He made. You must hate in yourself your own works and love in yourself the works of God.
When what you have done becomes hateful to you, then your good works begin, because you reprove your evil works. The beginning of good works lies in the acknowledgment of evil works. You act according to the truth and come to the light.
What does it mean that you act according to the truth? You do not flatter yourself. You do not curry favor with yourself. You do not deal craftily with yourself. You do not say, "I am righteous," while being unrighteous. Then you begin to act according to the truth.
You come to the light so that your works may be made manifest, because they have been wrought in God. Your sin, which has become hateful to you, would not have become hateful if God had not illumined it for you. His truth revealed it before you.
But whoever still loves his sins after admonition hates the admonishing Light and flees from Him. He does this so that his evil works, which he loves, may not be revealed. But whoever acts according to the truth convicts his own evil works within himself.
He does not spare himself or forgive himself, so that God may forgive him. Such a man acknowledges the thing for which he desires to receive forgiveness from God. He comes to the light and gives thanks to Him for revealing what he ought to hate in himself.
He says to God: Turn Thy face away from my sins (Ps 50:11). With what face would he say this, if he did not immediately add: For I know my iniquities, and my sin is ever before me (Ps 50:5)? Let that be before you which you would not wish to be before God. If you place your sin behind you, God will turn it before your eyes. And He will turn it then, when repentance can no longer bear fruit.
Hasten, lest darkness overtake you (Jn 12:35), my brethren. Do not sleep concerning your salvation. Do not sleep while there is time. Let no one estrange himself from the temple of God. Let no one estrange himself from labors for the Lord. Let no one be distracted from unceasing prayer. Let no one abandon customary piety.
Do not sleep while the day stands. The day is bright. Christ is the day. He is ready to forgive sins, but only those who acknowledge their transgressions. He is ready to punish those who defend themselves, boast that they are righteous, and think themselves something when they are nothing.
Whoever abides in His love and in His mercy, and is free from mortal (lethalibus) and grievous sins, acts according to the truth of confession. Such sins are the crimes of murder, theft, and adultery. This does not count those sins that seem lesser, such as slander, evil thoughts, and lack of restraint in permitted things. Such a man comes to the light in good works. For many small sins, if they are despised, kill.
Tiny are the drops that fill a river. Tiny are the grains of sand, but if much sand is laid upon a man, it crushes and buries him. Water in the hold does the same thing as a rushing wave. Little by little it enters through the hold. If it seeps in for a long time and is not pumped out, it sinks the ship.
What does it mean to pump it out, if not to give oneself to good works, lest sins flood us? We do this by compunction, fasting, almsgiving, and forgiveness. Yet the path of this age is thorny and full of temptations. Let it not puff you up in prosperity, nor break you in adversities.
He who gave you the happiness of this age gave it for your consolation, not for your corruption. Again, He who scourges you in this age does so for your correction, not for your condemnation. Bear within yourself the Father who disciplines you, lest you experience the Judge who punishes you. We say this to you every day, and we must say it more often, for these words are good and saving.