Despite the taunts and scorn directed at Jesus by His adversaries on Golgotha, the Blessed Virgin Mary, Mary Magdalene, Mary of Cleopas, and the Apostle John approached His Cross without fear. Archbishop Innocent speculates that they drew near only when darkness enveloped the scene, believing that prior to this, openly showing their love for Jesus would expose them to ridicule from His foes, particularly the Theotokos, who might have faced disrespect if recognized. However, this perspective seems unlikely. It is difficult to imagine that Our Lady merely observed Her Son's suffering from a distance; instead, the compassionate heart of a mother urged her towards Him, to where He endured His pain alone amid cruel enemies, with no one to turn to for relief. Everyone can relate to the agony of being surrounded by adversaries, feeling entirely isolated in their suffering, but a mother’s heart comprehends this anguish on a deeper level, often driven solely by an overwhelming desire to be present, heedless of potential dangers. Thus, one can reasonably presume that as soon as the soldiers completed their task and settled in to guard Jesus, John guided the Mother of God through the throng, accompanied by Mary Magdalene and Mary Cleopas; they all stood firm by the Cross, disregarding any threats.
It is plausible that at first they stood in such a way that Jesus did not see them; perhaps the malicious crowd encircling the Cross created a barrier. Yet, when those who insulted Him grew weary and began to leave the vicinity, Our Lady and John, who watched over her, moved closer, ensuring that Jesus could see them. When Christ departed from this earthly realm, His Blessed Mother was left alone, with no one to care for her. Joseph had passed away, and the so-called brothers of the Lord, sons of Mary Cleopas and not part of Jesus' circle of followers, were also absent, leaving no other relatives. Therefore, when Jesus noticed His Mother and His beloved disciple standing beside her, He felt it right to entrust her care to John, saying, “Woman, behold your son” (John 19:26), gesturing towards John. Then, addressing John and indicating His Mother, He added, “Behold, your mother” (John 19:27). John later recounts this moment, noting that from that point on, he took her into his home and cared for her as a son would for his mother (John 19:27).
The Evangelists Matthew and Mark, when describing the women at the crucifixion observing from a distance, do not mention the Mother of God (Mark 15:40-41), leading us to speculate that she may not have been present at her Son's death. Perhaps Jesus wished to shield her from the profound sorrow of witnessing His suffering and, by a glance, indicated to John to take her aside; yet, it is reasonable to believe that John returned to the Cross after escorting Our Lady away, as he continues to narrate the events that followed, stating emphatically, “And he who saw testified, and his testimony is true; he knows that he speaks the truth” (John 19:35). It seems improbable that John would have left Our Lady on her own during such a poignant and distressing moment. Thus, there is ample reason to concede that Our Lady remained near the Cross to the very end or at a minimal distance. “And the people stood and watched” (Luke 23:35).
But what became of the other Apostles, apart from John? Where were those steadfast companions of Christ who resolved to accompany Him on His final journey to Jerusalem, ready to perish alongside Him? Where was Peter, who boldly vowed to lay down his life for Christ? Where were they during this painful time for their Master, whom they had just recently acknowledged as the Son of God? Where had they fled?... Meanwhile, away from Golgotha, Judas was running, glancing back (Matthew 27:5). Where were the remaining ten Apostles? Where were the individuals whom Christ had called His friends during their last conversation (John 15:15)? The Gospel does not provide answers to these questions, but understanding the events leading up to this moment allows for a reasoned inference about the ten Apostles' state of mind as they scattered. Like the rest of the Jewish population of that era, they had awaited the Messiah as a triumphant King of Israel, one who would break the Roman oppression, dominate all nations, and bring them under Jewish authority. Such were the Jewish expectations regarding the Messiah’s coming; these desirable visions were so captivating that even the Apostles—despite Christ's numerous assertions that His kingdom was not of this world—found it difficult to abandon them. They imagined the glorious positions they would attain in the Messiah's kingdom, even competing amongst themselves regarding who would sit in the most esteemed places within His reign. The ‘Sons of Thunder,’ John and James, even dared to ask the Lord to grant them places of honor, one on His right hand and the other on His left. Their conviction in the mighty kingdom of the Messiah was so profound, obscuring their understanding, that they failed to believe the Lord’s warnings about His impending sufferings, death, and resurrection. Such afflictions appeared incompatible with their image of the King of Israel. How could He endure suffering? How could He die? Surely the Messiah would live forever; thus, He could not perish. But how then would resurrection be possible if, as the Messiah, He could not die? This last inquiry posed a dilemma for the Apostles, leaving them confounded and unwilling to seek answers. They were bewildered by Jesus' hesitance to establish His kingdom; they likely wondered why He declined to accept His kingship when the crowd, having been fed miraculously, desired to escort Him to Jerusalem for that purpose. Having lost hope in their aspirations upon His final journey, they attempted to dissuade Him from going, fearing certain death awaited Him. By this time, their belief in Him as the Messiah had already started to wane, and only their affection for Him as a Prophet and Healer motivated them to follow Him. Thomas stated, “Come and let us die with Him!”—and they all went.
The triumphant entry of Jesus into Jerusalem elicited jubilant shouts from the crowd greeting their King-Messiah, rekindling transient hopes among the Apostles that the glorious kingdom would soon materialize. Nevertheless, the rift between Jesus and the ruling authorities, coupled with the crowd's growing indifference toward Him, left His friends in sorrow. When He was arrested like a criminal and brought before trial, fear compelled them to forsake Him, including the most ardent among them, who denied Him thrice and hesitated even to utter His name. Afterward, they might have still harbored hopes that somehow their Master would be saved from the disgrace of execution and eventually, in triumph over His adversaries, establish His reign. Thus, they likely stood at Calvary, amidst the throng. Yet, alas! Such hopes were not destined to come to fruition. Rather than deploying His miraculous powers to deliver Himself from death, Christ prayed for His executioners. As He hung on the Cross, the insidious mockery directed at Him—“If You are the Son of God, come down from the cross” —could not have failed to plant doubt in the Apostles’ hearts. Did they not mentally beseech Him: “Lord! If You are the Son of God, come down from the cross and reveal Your kingdom. All will believe in You. O Lord! Do not tarry. Come down from the cross. Come down, Lord!”? If the Cross served as a considerable temptation for many who were prepared to acknowledge Jesus as the Son of God, could it not also challenge the Apostles? Might it not have plunged them into sorrow, despair, and disillusionment? Gazing at their crucified Master from afar, asking Him to descend from the Cross, and witnessing the absence of any answer to their petitions could have led them to hopelessness. Their cherished aspirations for the radiant kingdom of the Messiah lay in ruins, and their hopes of playing a significant role within that kingdom had vanished; it was as if everything had collapsed! And how many times had that kingdom seemed so attainable in their dreams? They had once asked Jesus what reward awaited them for leaving everything behind to follow Him; to which Christ responded that when He occupies the Throne of His glory, they too would sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. Not grasping the true meaning of these words then, they now reflected upon them with sorrow and despair, questioning, “Where are these promised thrones? And where is the Throne of Glory of Jesus? Is it not this Cross? Will they not share in His suffering? Will they not also be crucified as His disciples, co-workers in His mission? Why would He lead them into such an unbearable circumstance? Why mention these thrones when He awaits the Cross instead of the Kingdom of Glory?”