"And now, behold, I go bound in the spirit to Jerusalem" (Acts 20:22).
If we consider that from God we have being, life, powers, senses, heart, reason, and will, and from His providence the many blessings we enjoy in the world, we must ask a grave question.
God, and God alone, can grant us eternal blessedness. He truly grants it to His faithful servants. Most people either know this by understanding, or believe it on the sure testimony of those who understand.
Yet most people do not devote themselves to serving God faithfully, constantly, and exclusively. At least, they do not prefer it above every other occupation.
With amazement we must ask how it is possible to go so directly against justice, against gratitude, and against one’s own greatest good.
The unreasonable have found this unhappy possibility in the fact that they do not renounce God’s service altogether. They wish to attain blessedness in it, and they think this is enough.
But the narrow way? It has become wider because the number of those walking it has increased.
But the strait gate? New craftsmen of the moral life have rebuilt it more spaciously than before.
But the many tribulations through which we must enter the kingdom of God? Christ’s Apostles, martyrs, and confessors drank that cup to the dregs during the persecutions of Christianity, by sheer necessity.
Now, they say, there is no such necessity, and we may fill for ourselves a cup of gladness.
Perhaps not many will admit that they think this way. Yet many live so that their life serves as the signboard of such opinions.
"Be not conformed to this age" (Rom 12:2), the Apostle wrote to Christians in the age of Judaism and paganism.
O woe! Even in Christian times it is necessary to repeat to Christians: "Be not conformed to this age."
Conform yourselves to those true servants of God whose faithful service to Him is weakened neither by the enticement of worldly advantages and sensual pleasures, nor by fear of difficulties, obstacles, and sorrows.
So that we need not seek an example far away, look at this faithful servant of God, this firm primate of this Church.
See how he went without wavering, not only against difficulties, but into manifest danger for the honor of the faith, which is the honor of God.
He went for the safety of the Church, which is God’s inheritance.
Twice he went to the Horde kings, whose might was marked by nothing more often than cruelty and treachery.
Once Janibek summoned Alexius to heal the queen. But Alexius had learned the word of God and prayer, not the art of medicine.
Therefore he could accomplish healing only by a miracle. It could not be known whether God would grant a miracle of healing, especially for one sick and infected with false belief.
But this could be known almost certainly: failure in healing would bring reproach upon the faith of Christ.
A jest against the faith, according to the taste of the Horde, would be nothing other than the bitter death of its chosen servant.
The hierarch dared in the Lord. The miracle was accomplished, and the faith was glorified.
Another time, Grand Prince John urged Alexius to go to the Horde. He was to turn the new king Berdi Beg from hostile designs against Russia and bring him to peaceful dispositions.
This king had begun his reign by murdering twelve brothers.
In this case the Grand Prince could place some hope in the respect for the name of Alexius, which undoubtedly remained in the Horde after the queen’s healing.
Nevertheless, this embassy resembled sending a shepherd of sheep with only his staff to tame an enraged lion or tiger.
But the shepherd of rational sheep resolved to lay down his soul for the sheep.
The almighty Chief Shepherd preserved his life and, through him, granted peace to the rational flock and to the Russian land.
But to show still more highly the sacred example of service to God weakened by nothing, let us look at the divine Paul.
This example stands against the opinions of those who have not yet renounced the world and themselves.
It proves that faithful servants of God struggle with difficulties and endure sorrows, not only by unavoidable necessity, but with voluntary readiness.
They even have a certain desire to suffer for God, arising from strong love for Him.
Let us look at the divine Paul as he goes to Jerusalem into danger. This danger is manifest, not by conjectures and conclusions, but certain by the testimony of the Holy Spirit.
Yet he goes and does not waver.
Let us read the words which he spoke on this journey to the presbyters of Ephesus, as he took leave of them.
"And now, behold, I go bound in the spirit to Jerusalem, not knowing the things that shall befall me there, except that the Holy Spirit testifies in every city, saying that bonds and tribulations await me.
But I make account of none of these things, nor do I hold my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my course with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify the Gospel of the grace of God" (Acts 20:22-24).
Wondrous Paul! You already know that bonds and tribulations await you in Jerusalem, though you do not know from whom or for what, since you are innocent before all in everything.
You know this not by conjectures and conclusions, which may fail through changing circumstances or incomplete knowledge of them.
You know it by the testimony of the Holy Spirit, spoken by His prophets, whose infallibility you cannot doubt.
Who, then, drives you to Jerusalem while you are still free?
No one, he says, except that I am bound by the Spirit. "Bound in the spirit, I go to Jerusalem."
What does "bound in the spirit" mean? Does the Spirit truly drag him to Jerusalem for sufferings, as a prisoner to a dungeon?
No. For we see that when those devoted to him wept and begged him "not to go up to Jerusalem," he did not answer that he did this by necessity or compulsion.
Rather, he affirmed that he was doing what he willed, and what he was ready to do freely.
"Then Paul answered and said, What are you doing, weeping and breaking my heart? For I am ready not only to be bound, but also to die in Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus" (Acts 21:12-13).
In what way, then, was this man, I do not know what to call him, perhaps a free captive, "bound" in the spirit?
He went to Jerusalem for suffering like a lamb to sacrifice. Yet in this state he was as content as a lamb in rich pasture.