Is it possible he speaks of loving because hope ignites love, suggesting that he held onto hope that God would listen to his prayer?
But from where did he derive such hope? For he declares, "He inclined His ear unto me, and in my days I cried unto Him." Psalm 114:2. I loved, therefore, because He would lend an ear; He listened because He turned His ear toward me. Yet, how can you, O soul of man, be certain that God has inclined His ear to you unless you profess, "I have believed"? Thus, these three abide: faith, hope, and love. 1 Corinthians 13:13. Through your belief, you have hoped; through your hope, you have loved.
And what do your days represent if you proclaim, "In my days I called Him"? Perhaps these are the days marked by the fullness of time, when God sent His Son. Galatians 4:4. He has already asserted, “In a favorable time I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you." Isaiah 49:8. More likely, I would consider my days as days of affliction, days of mortality, days akin to Adam’s—a time marked by labor and anguish. I was caught in deep mire, and in another psalm, I lamented, "Behold, thou hast aged my days," for in these days, I have called to You. My days differ from those of my Lord. I refer to my days as those in which I was bold enough to abandon Him; and since He reigns everywhere, omnipotently holding all things, I have earned confinement—that is, I have been enveloped in the darkness of ignorance and the restraints of mortality.
In these days, the snares of death have encircled me, and the torments of hell have seized me. Psalm 113:3. These torments would not have approached me had I not strayed from You. Yet they have enveloped me; I became oblivious to them while I delighted in the fleeting joys of this world, in which the nets of hell are even more treacherous.
However, after I confronted tribulations and burdens, I cried out to the Name of the Lord. Psalm 113:4. I did not recognize the trials that were beneficial; I experienced hardship for which He provides help, to whom it is said, “Be Thou our helper in trouble,” for the aid of man is insufficient. I believed I could find joy and celebration in the futile support of humanity; yet upon hearing my Lord declare, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Matthew 5:4, I did not wait until I lost the temporal blessings in which I rejoiced, only to weep afterward; instead, I attentively reflected on the very affliction that made me rejoice in those things I feared losing but could not retain. I took a resolute and courageous stance and recognized that I was not only tormented by the hardships of this world but also bound by its fleeting joys. Thus, I uncovered the distress I had previously overlooked and cried out to the Name of the Lord, "Lord, I beseech Thee, deliver my soul.” Let the holy people of God echo, “I have called upon the Name of the Lord," and let those of the Gentiles who do not yet call upon His Name listen, seek to uncover their own burdens, and call upon the Lord to be saved.
The Lord is gracious and just; indeed, our God is gracious. Psalm 114:5. He is gracious and just and merciful. Most gracious because He inclined His ear towards me; I was unaware that God’s ear was so near until those beautiful feet urged me to call upon His Name. For who calls upon Him except for he whom He first calls? Therefore, He is merciful above all; even when He corrects, He remains merciful because He accepts. He disciplines every son whom He embraces. I should not harbor bitterness in His correction or maintain excessive sweetness in His acceptance. For how could the Lord, who guards the little ones? Psalm 113:6. Not chasten those He seeks as heirs when what son is there whom his father does not discipline? Hebrews 12:6-7. I was in distress, and He aided me because I was in trouble; the physician’s cutting is not punitive but healing.
Rest now, O my soul, for the Lord has bestowed goodness upon you. Psalm 114:7. Not due to your merit or strength, but because the Lord has done well for you. For, "He hath delivered my soul from death." Psalm 114:8. It’s remarkable, dear brethren, that after declaring his soul's return to peace because of the Lord’s kindness, he added, “For He hath delivered my soul from death.” Did his soul find rest because it was freed from death? Isn’t rest often associated with death? What actions does one whose life is peaceful undertake? And what are the actions of one consumed with restlessness in death? Such actions must lead the soul toward calmness and not into the striving for relentless toil, for it was by Him who had compassion that he was delivered from death, saying, “Come unto Me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28-30. Therefore, as one meek and humble, following Christ as the Way, the soul strives for rest; yet let it not be idle or lethargic but proceed in its course as it is written, “In quietness, do your works.” Sirach 3:19. You have rescued my soul from death, my eyes from tears, and my feet from stumbling. He who feels the chains of this flesh sings these things as fulfilled hope. For it is truly said, “I was in trouble, and He delivered me," and the Apostle truthfully asserts, "that we are saved by hope." Romans 8:24. It is accurate to say that we have been delivered from death, portrayed as a fulfillment, so we may comprehend the death of those who do not believe, of whom He says, "Let the dead bury their dead." Matthew 8:22. Then He will wipe away our tears once He has saved our feet from slipping. For then we will not stumble as we walk, when there will be no falling of this fragile flesh. But now, however steadfast the path before us may be, which is Christ’s, since we bear this flesh, which we are summoned to conquer; in the act of chastising and mastering it, the crucial matter is to not fall. But who, while contending with the flesh, can achieve this? “I will please the Lord, in the land of the living.” Psalm 114:9. We engage in effort now, as we await the redemption of our body. Romans 8:23. Yet when death is swallowed up in victory, and this corruptible puts on incorruption, and this mortal puts on immortality, 1 Corinthians 15:53-54, there will be no more weeping, for there will be no falling, nor shall there be falling where there is no corruption. And thus, we shall no longer strive for acceptance, but will be entirely pleasing in the sight of the Lord in the land of the living.