Augustine of Hippo
The afflictions of God do not originate from me. I strive to serve faithfully yet endure suffering, while those who do not serve are esteemed. He questioned himself profoundly. The spirit is distressed, yearning for the eternal while rejecting the fleeting and earthly. Within this contemplation lies the journey of the soul; though it may be tossed about like a ship in a storm, it will ultimately arrive at the safe harbor. This mirrors the experience of the ill who may feel less discomfort when healing seems distant; however, when recovery appears imminent, they suffer greater intensity, a condition that physicians refer to as the critical phase of convalescence: a significant fever that, nonetheless, leads to restoration. This man too is in turmoil.
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Such words are perilous, brethren, offensive, and bordering on blasphemy. How can God be aware? Thus, I say "almost"—he didn’t outright claim: “God lacks knowledge.” Instead, he expressed a sense of questioning, uncertainty, and doubt. It is akin to what he professed just prior: "My steps had nearly slipped." He does not declare this definitively, but even the presence of such doubt is perilous. Through this peril, he transitions towards healing. Listen to the notion of healing: therefore, in vain did I purify my heart and cleanse my hands among the innocent, for all day long they afflicted me, and my discipline came at dawn. Discipline is a means of correction. He who is disciplined receives guidance. What does morning represent? It is not merely a delay. The evils that are wickedly postponed differ from mine, which are not delayed: the former may be late or not deferred at all, while mine is at dawn.