John Chrysostom
"My eye is withered with sorrow." Do you observe a soul in distress? Following his expression of repentance, the prophet revisits themes of suffering, the turmoil of the spirit, and the dread arising from witnessing God's anger. Here, the term 'eye' refers to the spiritual vision, the discerning and rational aspect of the soul, which often becomes troubled by the awareness of its sins. As he continually contemplated his transgressions and the fierce displeasure of God, he lived his life in a state of fear, not in the indifference that marks the lives of many, but in brokenness and reverence. Such turmoil brings about peace; such fear serves as a guarantee of safety.
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One who yields to such emotional turmoil can weather any storm, while one who lacks such a sensitive spirit risks a disastrous downfall. Just as a ship left unladen and at the mercy of turbulent winds quickly submerges, so too does a soul that lives carelessly become prey to countless passions. For this reason, the esteemed Apostle Paul, articulating this state of the troubled soul, stated: "having become callous, they have given themselves up to sensuality, greedy to practice every kind of impurity" (Eph. 4:19). Just as the helmsman, while burdened by the worries of the crew, can bring peace to all, when he sheds his concerns and falls asleep, he instigates great disorder; likewise, a person who engages in anxiety, fear, and trembling fosters harmony in their soul, while indulging in the slumber of negligence capsizes the vessel. "Weathered by all my enemies." What does he mean by 'weathered'? He expresses fatigue from his adversaries. Indeed, life is replete with challenges and beset by numerous foes, who become even more formidable when we succumb to sin. Therefore, we must do all we can to evade their grasp and never engage in their ways; this is our greatest safeguard. Identifying the multitude of these enemies, Paul asserts: "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against rulers, against authorities, against cosmic powers over this present darkness, against spiritual forces of evil in heavenly places" (Eph. 6:12). Given the nature of our foes, we must remain vigilant and avoid situations that lead to sin. Nothing ages us more than sin. This is why Paul exhorts us to guard against the resulting decay, saying: "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind" (Romans 12:2). Therefore, if you find yourself aging due to sin, renew yourself through repentance.
When in sin, one may feel mired and aged. This is embodied in the phrase, "I have become dilapidated among all my enemies." Yet observe: even while entangled and aging in sin, the prophet did not despair or lose faith in God's mercy. Instead, he found salvation through contrition, was cleansed by tears, and resolved to declare to his adversaries: "Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity."