Augustine of Hippo
What were his desires? That they might be confounded and fail. Why might he wish this? Does it weigh upon my spirit? What occupies my spirit? Engaging in some contention. It is said that those who quarrel are those who are compelled to fight. Therefore, we must be cautious of those who influence our spirits. What is it that impacts our souls? Primarily, it is the incitement to rebel against God, so that in our wrongdoings, we do not find favor with Him. When can you say you are righteous, that the God of Israel may show kindness to you and to those with a pure heart? When can you claim righteousness? Will you listen? When the good you perform brings joy to you and to God; yet in the suffering you endure, He finds no pleasure in it.
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Reflect on what I have shared, dear friends, and be wary of those who impact your souls. For all who burden you with trials and tribulations have a singular intent, that God may take displeasure in your afflictions, leading you to exclaim, 'What is this? What wrong have I done?' Thus you assert that you have done nothing wrong and are righteous. Is He the unjust one? You declare yourself a sinner; I acknowledge that, but I do not claim righteousness for myself. Yet, sinner, have you sinned as grievously as he who appears righteous? As with Gaius? I am aware of his wickedness and transgressions, from which I am far removed, and yet he thrives while I suffer greatly. Thus, I do not cry out, 'O God, what have I done to You?' for I have committed no evil; rather, I question why I suffer without having incurred such punishment. Once again, you consider yourself just, while He is unjust? Awaken, troubled soul! You state, 'I have not proclaimed myself just.' What do you say then? I am a sinner, yet not one who has sinned so greatly as to merit such punishment. So, you do not say to God, 'I am just, and You are unjust'; instead, you speak, 'I am unjust, but You are even more unjust.' Look, your soul has entered combat; behold, your soul is at war. War against whom? Your soul is in opposition to God; what has been done against Him by virtue of your grievances. In wanting to cry out against Him, you show your ingratitude. Therefore, return to confess your ailment and seek the healing hand of the Great Physician. Do not assume that those who prosper momentarily are fortunate. You face chastisement, while they are unscathed; perhaps it is for your correction and improvement that the inheritance is safeguarded for you. In conclusion, observe what follows: let those who harbor ill thoughts about me be brought to confusion and shame. Confusion and shame, confusion stemming from a guilty conscience, shame arising from modesty. Let this come upon them, and all will be well with them.